It's been a rough couple of days for me. 

Everything hurts/sucks and I'm getting really sick of it. 

Why can't he just be there? Why can't I find him? 

I suppose time has just run its course for us. 

On a lighter note, I plan my itinerary out for Europe on Tuesday. I'm just going to focus on losing these last 15lbs and saving up for that. I don't even need a man in my life right now, I should be focusing more on myself. Reading books again. Drinking tea again. 

Feeling beautiful again. 

Because god knows that's fucking difficult for me right now.

Things I ate today (I seriously love food):

This is my eeeeeaaasy recipe for deelish/cheap/more nutrional top ramen. Oriental package with ginger, garlic, half the seasoning and veggies. 

Lovelyness from Tsuda in Auburn <3 So fantastic.

 And a prezzie from my best girl <3

I need to stop listening to Bright Eyes and feeling like shit every night. I'm running out of cigarettes.

Miss Lindsay <3

So here's a few photos from my latest trip to Denver, Colorado and my darling Christina's birthday dinner.

My world needs more string lights.

I will never love again.

I dyed my hair dark dark and bought some lipstain.

My eyes pop like nobody's business. 

I'm out for blood.

You better watch your step, boy.