It's been a rough couple of days for me. 

Everything hurts/sucks and I'm getting really sick of it. 

Why can't he just be there? Why can't I find him? 

I suppose time has just run its course for us. 

On a lighter note, I plan my itinerary out for Europe on Tuesday. I'm just going to focus on losing these last 15lbs and saving up for that. I don't even need a man in my life right now, I should be focusing more on myself. Reading books again. Drinking tea again. 

Feeling beautiful again. 

Because god knows that's fucking difficult for me right now.